Sick of being sick!!

I don’t understand it, it’s like I’m allergic to Dharamsala or something. The night of my last post I left the internet café, went out to dinner with friends, and proceeded to throw up in the restaurant bathroom. And then the next day, when I thought I might be feeling better, I came down with a fever that made it so everything I did, even laying in bed trying to sleep, was uncomfortable. I slept for 14 hours (!) and woke up feeling a bit better, though I feel like my appetite is just gone. Then I realized it’s really not gone at all, it’s just gone for eating the same food every day. I pulled out my journal and quickly composed a list of all of the things I would eat if I were at home. I will publish it for you all in all its glory so you can see the wonderful foods you could be enjoying at this very moment! It’s like I’m pregnant (though there is absolutely zero chance of that, unless it’s an immaculate conception) because I’m sick but I have very specific, often strongly-flavored food cravings. I would KILL for balsamic vinegar, but bread grosses me out. And little smells, like the coconut oil in our kitchen, make me ill, especially in the morning.

Pat, who’s a nurse, said there’s a small chance I could have hookworm, and my goodness I’m hoping that’s not the case. I haven’t even brushed my teeth in the local water. Some others seem to be having the “pregnancy” problem so maybe we’re all mildly ill from the water all the time. Or maybe 6 weeks of an unvaried diet is just too much for me. My clothes are so baggy they might fall off of me, but when I get home (or when I get to England, actually!) I am going to EAT LIKE CRAZY.

I’m just so, so sick of being sick. It’s freaking me out, as a 23-year old, and especially as someone who was able to sustain cruise director-level energy for 11 weeks at camp last summer. Fingers crossed that my last 2 weeks here are full of fun and good health, because I really want to be able to make the most of this experience, and when I feel awful, all I can think is “I want to go home!”

Today is a big Indian holiday, Holi. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holi (Interesting, it mentions both that people get sick a lot around this time AND that the colored powders are supposed to help…) I am typing this COVERED in green powder. I look like I’m playing Elphaba in Wicked. Tomorrow I’ve found a church for Easter, so I’ll be able to celebrate both my holiday and the Indian one. And hopefully while feeling healthy! Holi pictures to follow, of course!!

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